Happy Days
*claps hands* Oh happy days…
Um yeah, don’t worry, I’m not going to annoy you all by singing. 
Although…
Heh, yeah, anyhoo. I’m officially back now. In fact, I’m just up. 
Lazy kitteh. It’s been an interesting week, I do feel much better now after that time away, it’s good to get away from the same old same old. Obviously, my problems aren’t totally solved, I didn’t expect a miracle and it will take time and hard work but I’m on the right path I feel. I feel much happier, I feel refreshed and I’m not as angry now (though I think the SVs will help sort that out. 
). But I’ve also learned that that anger is natural, it’s been built up inside of me and perhaps letting it out isn’t such a bad thing since I have a good control on it, well for the most part. And I’ve also realised that yeah, my anger towards idiot members on IF isn’t really as bad as I thought. Idiots piss me off in real life so why wouldn’t they on the net? I think I just blew it out of proportion because I felt everyone was turned against me and that I was pretty much nothing more than a strict dictator. Some might feel that way (probably the ones I’ve suspended 
) but who cares? I enjoy doing it (shock horror, it’s true! 
) and I’m not perfect myself so I can’t expect to be surrounded by intelligent, mature people 24/7. That’s not reality.
And for all the muppets there are, there are plenty of good, decent people that make it worthwhile. I’d mention names but the staff list + the number of people that spring to mind is long but I’m sure you all know who you are. I’ve taken a different look towards life and IF, I’m need to concentrate on the good things from now on. Sure, life’s a bitch and then you die, but until then I just need to take it as it is, the good with the bad, and see to it that I make myself happy because I guess only we can truly make ourselves happy. 
Mmm, so yeah, I’d just like to thank everyone for their support, in particular the following tiddlypeeps.
PhranK - Good words of wisdom you gave me in the other blog, I’ve taken it on board and I think it helped me to learn that I need to take the good things from the bad and learn from life. 
Stephen - Thanks for supporting me, you’ve been a big help throughout my time on IF and I’m very much indebted to you. You’ve always shown belief in me and that’s something I needed in order to believe in myself. Thank you.
Looners - Thank you for also supporting me, you thought I should take time off and you were right, it’s done me good. I think a happier Jay may be a more productive Jay. And thank you for also looking after my baby (Graphics Request), I’ve been dropping in as an00nim00se (as some may have seen) and it’s good to see everything’s in order, in fact I’d say there’s probably less idiocy now. Everyone seems to be obiding by the rules. Wewt!
Zach - You’ve probably had the brunt of most of my ramblings and rants on AIM so thanks for listening. I trusted my secret with you because I knew you’d keep it but also you have this natural aura (sp?) for making me feel comfortable. You’re a good man and a good friend. May you live long, be prosperous and eat much cake and pie.
But of course a big thank you to everyone who supported me this week, it’s touching to know that I’m not the big bad wolf and each and everyone of you has helped in your own special way. Don’t feel that you’re not special because I didn’t mention your name, I have notice a lot of support from a lot of people so it’s a bit difficult to mention everyone but hey, love ya’ll. 
Don’t worry, I promise I won’t turn into Oprah Winfrey. I don’t have the boobs for it. It’s been a fun but helpful week, it was good to see my old mates. Most haven’t changed. 
Well, Mike has, he’s even more gorgeous. But I managed to keep my hands off of him. 
I’ve got a way to go but I’ll get there, one day at a time. I’m not sure right now if I’ll be off for any longer in the future but if my presence ever waivers you know why. I’m still here though and it’s back to moderating. Teh kitteh is back.
Welcome back Jay!
It’s nice to see that you’re all refreshed and happy. Hope you have a lovely weekend. 
-Ali
Comment by Ali — June 25, 2005 @ 3:02 am
Glad to hear you’re feeling more rejuvenated. It’s always good to get change. ^_^
@ your compliments: All in a day’s work my friend. ^_^ I’m always on if ya need to talk.
Comment by deat — June 25, 2005 @ 3:14 am
Glad to hear you’re feeling rejuvenated. Change is always helpful in cases like this.
@ your comment: All in a day’s work my friend. ^_^ I’m always online if you ever need to talk.
Comment by deat — June 25, 2005 @ 3:16 am
Gar, I commented, then it didn’t show up, so I re-commented, and now both show up. :arr: Sorry ’bout that.
Comment by deat — June 25, 2005 @ 3:18 am
Hey Jay I’m glad your back!
Comment by James(WC) — June 25, 2005 @ 3:47 am
Yay! ^_^
That overload of emotes tells a lot.
Good to see you back, Jay.
Comment by Stefan — June 25, 2005 @ 1:10 pm
Welcome back Jay! ^_^
Good to see you’re back and a bit better
Comment by Matthew — June 25, 2005 @ 6:04 pm
Its Wonderful to see you happy again Jay. You missed nothing. Hope things just get better and better.
Comment by Yodaminch — June 26, 2005 @ 12:59 am
:shifty: I was a tadish busy with exams to completely fill your spot in GR, and frankly I’m not even sure it was needed since people seem to be behaving. But thank Yodes for assisting in there.
I’m glad your back. Let’s cause mayhem sometime.
Comment by Looners — June 26, 2005 @ 3:10 am
Haha, thanks guys. ^_^ It’s good to be back properly and it’s wonderful to feel good again!
Good luck with your exams Looners, you concentrate on them and we’ll have mayhem when you’re done to celebrate. 
*jay bounces s’more*
Comment by Administrator — June 26, 2005 @ 4:14 am
Glad your back and hopefully feeling better now. It was good of you to take some time off and leave IF although i did see you once or twice on IF :ph34r:
Anyways We all missed you alot, dont do that again. lol
Comment by Jalba — June 26, 2005 @ 7:37 am
Oh but Jay, but Jay you see, I said I was busy with exams. As of Friday I am free, thus will hopefully spend more time lazying. ‘Please read correctly.’ :r
Comment by Looners — June 27, 2005 @ 2:38 am
Well, sorry to hear you were not feeling well for various reason, as I have been away from IFS for the last two months, damn IF Drop Outs, though it’ll be over soon, vote’s going down in the IRC channel tommarow (or later today, depending on your time zone), hope to see yah there Jay
Comment by VeritechPilot — June 27, 2005 @ 8:38 am
“but until then I just need to take it as it is, the good with the bad, and see to it that I make myself happy because I guess only we can truly make ourselves happy.”
Indeed, Jay!!! Learn from the bad but keep the good right at the Front. I always tell myself, “There’s no use being sad when the alternative is a big happy Grin”
Comment by Andrew — July 3, 2005 @ 1:53 pm
Comment by PhranK — July 5, 2005 @ 7:24 pm
Eh.. that was supposed to be the :wub: smiley. :/
Comment by PhranK — July 5, 2005 @ 7:25 pm
Hahaha, I don’t have teh IF smilies uploaded but I’ll add in for ya.
Comment by Administrator — July 8, 2005 @ 8:50 am