OcelotJay has left InvisionFree
And has been replaced with me: Jay. Did I scare ya? 
Thought I’d resigned? Haha no. What I’m talking about is that my name has been changed from OcelotJay to just Jay. A somewhat more professional look I guess, I’ve had some comments like that but there is a reason, and many have asked why. Well here it is.
The Ocelot had to die. It represented me as a person. I’m generally a laid back, fluffy person that doesn’t take life too seriously and enjoys it. I’m friendly, I’m fun and I’ll be damned if anyone ruins my day. That, for my online self, has been destroyed. And by none other than the abundance of stupid, arrogant, narrow minded, pathetic people I have encountered. Not just on IF Support but across other boards, which is why I am now Jay at almost every board I’m active on as a member or staff member. With the exception of SZ because I couldn’t give two hoots about that place. But that’s another rant. No, the Ocelot gave people the impression not only that I was nice but more so (particualtly with the Graphic Request folk) that I’m a walk over. Well, am I hell.
As a lot of people have now learned, I am not someone you want to get on the wrong side of. I’m all for being fair and second chances but piss me around and you’ll suffer for it. Play by the rules and I’m the same old Jay but try to take me for a fool and the egg will be on your face. And I’m tired of it. No more mister nice guy. I actually do believe in second chances (with some exceptions) and I have always given them, whether in my RL or online. In fact, I remember the days when I was a manager on an old MSN community. For two years I helped run the place and only once did I ever ban someone. Suspensions were rare, very rare. I actually talked to people. If someone caused trouble, I would sit and talk to them over MSN and it worked. Most people, no matter how stupid, can be talked to. It’s something I wished I could continue. Then the site shut down and I moved on to forums; phpbb, proboards before finally resting with IF. IF is almost like an online home to me. Sad but true. I’ve met many good people on Support and various other boards so no, I don’t regret the fact I have spent a lot of time on it. I’m not on 24/7, only at night if I’m on my own and have nothing to do.
Unfortunately with great people also come the shit heads. And boy are there THOUSANDS of them! -_- I used to generally not care, but now that I have more responsabilities (moderating on IF Support, moderating several boards and running another) it’s started to annoy me. Maybe it’s the fact that I have to ‘live’ with these people, I dunno. But it’s certainly pissed me off. I’ve given chances where most others probably wouldn’t (and now I see why!), I’ve bent over backwards to help sort things out and I’ve tried to talk people down from their high horse and what is the result? It’s all thrown straight back in my face. Now maybe I’m taking it too personally but when I give people second chances, I take it as an insult when they spit in my face and walk all over that chance. Well, no more. I’m putting my foot down. As far as I’m concerned, if you screw me around you’re going to pay the price. Like I said, second chances are given for a reason but throwing it back in my face says a lot about people to me. Funnily enough it always seems to be people who do graphics, such as the Graphic Request folk on Support or TTKW. It’s pitiful how arrogant these people have become, their swolen egos preventing them from seeing they are lowly mortals like the rest of us. Ironic how some of the people I once respected have become people I despise; only now can I see their pathetic dillusions to the full extent. Sad. I sometimes wonder if they actually believe to be better than others.
Anyway, all this has left me VERY unfuzzeh. I honestly don’t feel like I can carry the name Ocelot anymore, not for now at least. I’m too pissed off and aggrivated but I’ll be damned if I take anymore of it. No, I was a fool to think my nice ways would work as a mod or owner on the boards I work on, I honestly believed that people could be changed. Heh, I should know that’s not possible. And so the Ocelot no longer lives in me. I’m just Jay; cranky and annoyed.
But as I said before, there are good people around. There are some wonderful members (JamesWC - IF, The Chen Dynasty - TTKW, etc), the fantastic folk I work with at TTKW (Stephen, Ed, Nick, Nikki, etc - wub you all) and the wonderful team at IF (Yodaminch, Loth, Steef, Seth, Luna, Rory, James, Zennith, Merc, Phrank, Duff, Nathan, Brian, Smithster, Lightsup, Mez and Creator - wherever he’s lurking); all truly wonderful people, I feel very to be working with them. 
I worked for many places over the last few years but none have been better than IF, so friendly and relaxed. I’ve yet to be bitched at. 
Ho hum, there you have it. The full reason why Ocelot is gone. Maybe it will return in the future but for now you’ll have to settle with me. What’s really annoying is you can’t change from OcelotJay to Jay on other things like photobucket accounts. Gah!
In other news, my neice threw an egg at me today.
